fading rays of light

i wish my soul was never so
that i did not live in ashes
cold and lost all things I love
or distant
hardly seen

every minute an age
yet somehow days are fleeting
gone
always gone
empty past
empty coming

i wait for nothing
i move toward nothing
i long for everything
i cry for me
for this world
where i can never be
not really
not known
not wanted
wishing to be cold

worthless words
unheard thoughts
work undone
and broken hearts
i am this
and more
so much more
but better things are held in darkness
as hope is the prisoner of Pandora's box
unopened
there is no hope